My time is not free
there is something
miniature silicon chips,
tiny gates, open/close
that thing beeps
jangles my brain
tangles my time
but it’s not just the ipad desktop laptop phone tablet
there’s my mind, my brain with its own delicate thickets
Gates, Open Close Flow
Stop Send Receive
Let go !
Free time !
and suddenly I'm in an open moment
fresh from the oven,
gooey white icing, melts among the folds
Dinosaurs they say
Did anyone tell you that?
did you believe it?
That’s a thing to be laid out
on a wall chart
Dinosaurs were also
bits of green/brown plastic for the kids
one had a big bulge in the center
another a spikey crown
and T-Rex growled upright
on massive thighs
but not really, right?
And then it all came together for me
in a big bubble of time
when the little ones came to visit
* * *
Bones, delicate, like a bird’s
four little four-year-old fingers reach up to rest
and down on the beach, sandpipers,
their legs a blur
as they race
tell me mine is not the only way
I float released in the sea air
I feel it real
at the Witte Museum
there in front of me, a dinosaur bone
fossilized so big so heavy
we all have our rhythms
what’s 67 million years?
one to another
* * *
CODA – We all have our rhythms
Soon after they arrived
the 1-yr-old chased the 4-yr old round and round in a circle because there are 2 doors
in one, out the other and round and round
I put my phone on the floor trying to record the sound of their quick footsteps, their legs are so much shorter, the sound soothes so
yes, and then the sandpipers, quicker still
and how is the sound of the dinosaur whose bone I saw the other day?
and how might its footsteps sound to other dinosaurs?
all this making me feel, like Haldane, that this universe with all its life forms is not only bigger and more mysterious than I imagine
it is bigger and more mysterious than I can imagine
HOW TO BEAT THE COMPETITION
Kill them ….
give yourself a chance to get better at something you care about
use your creativity
find another way
discover that’s not actually
what you truly wanted
and find out what it is you do desire